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Wednesday, February 8th, 2006
9:01 pm	The Wake..<3Katie friggin Renee I love you to death<3.. So....Just got back from the wake..for Betty. Ugh, I know i didnt know the women well but that was so hard. Not just because someone died, because I saw all the pain that my best friend Katie had to go through. Im so sorry Katie, Chris, Patty,Brent, and the whole family..I know what she meant to you...She is your nanna, your mother[and mother in law] and I cant imagine what your going through.. That poem was beautiful, too..if only i had written it down or would know where to get it. Hearing all those memories and all the heartache and pain was enough to bring the hardest person to tears..I really hope I get to go to the funeral tomorrow, though its a school day. I don't care, I didn't know Betty well but I knew her, and just hearing of what a great person she is, i regret not knowing her well. Katie, Your like a sister to me and I love you, I'm ALWAYS here for you, whenever you need me. Or anyone at all. Chris too. Heck, the whole family cause I love you all so much. Chris' speech was sweet, and I'm glad that he, and everyone, shared such sweet memories of their nanna with everyone. It was truelly moving and brought me to tears..But I wouldnt change it for a thing, it was beautiful. Katie, your one of my best friends, I've known you for so long[even though when we first met at age 5, you hated me!:p]and I am ALWAYS, no matter in what situation,time, place, or anything at all, I am always going to be there for you. A song perfectly says it.. *cough*GREEN DAY*cough*POPROCKS&COKE*cough* "Wherever you go You know I'll be there If you go far, You know I'll be there I'll go anywhere, So I'll see you there You place the name You know I'll be there You name the time You know I'll be there I'll go anywhere So I'll see you there I don't care if you don't mind I'll be there not far behind I will dare Keep in mind I'll be there for you Where there's truth You know I'll be there Amongst the lies You know I'll be there I'll go anywhere So I'll see you there I don't care if you don't mind I'll be there not far behind I will dare Keep in mind I'll be there for you If you should fall You know I'll be there To catch the call You I'll be there I'll go anywhere So I'll see you there I don't care if you don't mind I'll be there not far behind I will dare Keep in mind I don't care I'll be there for you I'll be there for you" im there for you all...do have to say Avery crying her eyes out was totally heart breaking. Truelly was..Rest In Peace, "Nanna." Your a great person, a great nanna, a great mother, and you have a lot in faith. A lot of faith in your family and friends. You will truelly be missed, forever. But we will all see you, again. Rest In Peace<3 And thats just the way the cookie crumbles..<3.. <3Karley<3 Current Mood: sympathetic Current Music: Poprocks&Coke By Green Day (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 13th, 2005
11:23 am	Im not growing up, im just burning out. So, i havent updated this in the longest time. A lot has happened sense the last time i updated this... First of all, me and ben. almost was but didnt work out...and im heartbroken. yes, i am. i wish it would have worked.. first off, we went to a skatepark concert together. It was one of the best things i've ever been to with a guy. im not going to give details, just know that it was amazing and anything you would want to happen with a guy on a cold night at a ..skate park concert..well, it was amazing. but one night while i was talking on the phone with him, he told me it wasnt going to work. said we dont have anything in common and that my parents were to striked. that made my whole, WHOLE world come crashing down..it was the worst thing ever..well, i've been through worse but it made be feel like crap and i wasnt worth his time at all. i cant believe it. i do love him. and i will always. im not kidding, it isnt one of those things were people say they will love someone forever and not..it just doesnt work that way.. i new it was going to end up like this. relationships always end up rocky for me. they dont work. it just DOESNT work. ever. other then that..my grades are suffering. everything other then english. english is good. i have a feeling my parents are going to get the report card and blow out of the ceiling. sometimes its the exact opposite but, that never happens that way either. Lyrics of the Day: I caught fire by The Used: Im melting in your eyes I lost my place could stay awhile.. and im melting in your eyes like my first time that I caught fire just stay with me lay with my now Current Mood: rejected Current Music: I Caught Fire by The Used (Comment on this)
Monday, October 24th, 2005
3:18 pm	IM IN LOVE. yeha,you heard it. Love. with BEN. Rudolph< 3 He is amazing completely amazing. Even though I'll never be with him.. Ever... Unless he quits pot. Which im sure he wouldnt.. of course he wouldnt. He likes me but I dont think he does THAT much.. I know he likes me a lot..just not as much as i like him. Which is a lot. a lot<3 Plus, who would ever quit pot or something that ..well.."important" to them.. Nobody would ever want to quit something just for me.. Never has, never will. The end. I just wish My parents would understand about him.. There is sooo much more to him then pot. SO MUCH MORE! And I know that I wouldnt ever do drugs. So they should be able to trust me.. anyway, going now..bye.. <3Ben<3 p.s.-Tom is a amazing person!:) -Karley♥ Current Mood: stressed Current Music: happy? by Mudvayne (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 20th, 2005
5:46 pm	Lately, I've been..a shell of m.y.s.e.l.f can't you see? So. Today. was. pretty much AMAZING IN EVERY WAY. I am so happy at the moment, but there are a few things bringing me down. okay, here it goes.. A guy I like SOOOOOO SO SOS OSOSOSIGNOJFNGDSOFGHS MUCH likes me back and i could easily be the happiest person in the world at this very moment. It does feel good to be this happy and all but, im too happy. haha the reason im too happy is cause well..im so happy that i dont feel good. i have a bad stomach ache and its driving me CRAZY. WEE! HAPPY! yayyyy happy. happy happy happy. well im going to wal mart with Tiffany,so i will write later. -Karely- (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 19th, 2005
5:15 pm	Katie, ohhh Katie;) Okay so basically this is my first livejournal thing *EVER* and i've dedicated it to my dear friend Katie *I LOVE SPOOGLE* Bowman! hahaha. Anyway.We use to walk on the beach at 4 am Watch the sun roll in just sitting on the beach together Waiting I'll always be waiting For that summer to come back again I want my whole life to be like that summer Sitting here remembering all the good times Sitting here, wishing it would come back Waiting Im waiting I'll always be waiting.. For that summer. Smiles always plastered on our faces nothing could bring us down We'd always be found in our favorite places Where did the time go? Will my life ever be whole again? Im waiting for those good times to come back around. ------------------------------------------------------------------ Hey Katie guess what. Spoogle. Derek. Red swing. Fireworks. Marshmellows. Camp. Scavenger hunt. Swimming. hide and go seek in the dark. "am I GAY?!"skip-bo. sparklers. you staying at myhouse till 3 am. ohhh the memories;) Anyway, I just hope you feel better friend. I will always love you and will be here for you when you need me, okay? You know the number:):) Current Mood: blank Current Music: Take me away(cried out to heaven) (1 Comment |Comment on this)